Life can be a bit overwhelming.... | kiragirl79's Blog

 Well, so far everything since moving has went fairly well, but for some reason I have been feeling a bit overwhelmed today. There is so much material to learn in training and then I have to learn all of the supervisor stuff on top of that, so I guess that this is a normal feeling. I was so tired today that I came home and napped until almost 8:30. I am still tired, but feel a bit refreshed. I think that my body needed a good rest. I guess that stress is wearing me down a little bit, so I am trying to use some of my dbt soothing skills to deal with it effectively so that I don't have one of my "breakdowns". I know that even when I get out on the floor, things are going to be difficult, but I caught on in va so I know that I can here too, it is just going to take some time.

Besides that, I have also been having one of my "fat" days. I didn't exercise yesterday since it was my day off and I had to be in early today, so I haven't yet. I plan on doing it once Kali goes to bed. I think that will also help me feel a little bit better. I just feel so uncomfortable in my own body bc it doesn't feel like my body anymore. I guess that I shouldn't stress so much about it bc I am trying to do something about it and I have to give it time, but it is hard not to feel like a bloated sea cow! I just want my body back. Is that too much to ask for?...

The trainer stopped on the elevator and told me that I am sooo pretty...that was shocking coming from another female out of the blue. I thanked her and told her that I don't think so. She told me that she knows that I don't think so. That may be why she said it or maybe she could tell that I was having a "down" day and was trying to cheer me up. She also has depressive tendencies...Anyhow, it was nice to get a compliment, especially on a day when I am feeling kinda bad anyway. 

Other than that, nothing to complain about. New years was pretty good besides the fact that my daughter was being a complete brat. I think that she is acting out bc of the move, so I am trying not to be too hard on her. She has been having alot of mood swings lately. I am sure that this will pass as time moves on. She did make some friends already which will help some as well. I am just ready to get settled into my new job and for Kali to start and get settled into school. She should make more friends which will also help out alot with the transition. I guess that I am just ready for the transition to be over and for life to settle down.

I don't deal well with change, but so far I think that I have been doing okay considering the fact that this was a relatively large change. I switched jobs, moved 19 hours away, (leaving behind all of my friends and family), and pretty much left behind life as I know it. So...yeah, stressing just a little...