I have no life | kiragirl79's Blog

Well, it should be a great day, its saturday and I am off from work, but I would have to say that I think that I would rather be at work right now. My boyfriend went to a track for a meeting with people from a cobalt car club that he belongs to and I am home alone right now. I am not upset that he went because he certainly deserves to spend time away from me, yet I am still somewhat depressed. It is times like these that I realize that I have no friends and no life. I don't belong to any clubs...I can't even manage to get my friends to call back half of the time. I called a "friend" today and he didn't answer which is typical most of the time anyway. He probably won't even call me back to tell me to fuck off or that he is busy. It seems like whenever my boyfriend has other things to do, I am left all alone. I really hate feeling friendless and lonely...Hell, I can't even go shopping bc I gave him all of my credit cards to hold bc I just keep spending money everytime I get bored, which is most of the time. I usually wake up around 6 and hang out by myself for hours...I just don't understand. I used to be the "it" girl, always surrounded by people...now I am just a washed up old mom...with no friends, no life, just my house, my kid, my boyfriend, and my job. When those things aren't around, I am nobody...