A bit more in control of my emotions... | kiragirl79's Blog

 So...yesterday was a pretty rough day. I couldn't even make it through work without crying at times. I just kept thinking the worst. Me and my boyfriend exchanged emails about everything, but we still haven't really "talked". Some of it I don't even really want to talk about bc it is just my irrational mind at work. Other things would be good to talk about. I do think that we need more excitement in our relationship and I also think that it is important for me to go out solo with friends from time to time. 

He was sweet and did fix dinner last night, which was a load off of me. I had told him that maybe sometimes he needs to take on some of the household responsibility to lighten the load for me. I feel a bit overwhelmed at times and right now with all of the big changes on the horizon I am feeling really quite stressed. I do think that right now would be an appropriate time for a little break. 

I have also been feeling really insecure. He assured me that he plans to move to iowa with me and that if he gets the job in canada, that he will take me and kali with him. I guess that all I can do is trust him. I mean, I haven't seen him looking for places around here and the only thing that he would really need to stay for would be possibly his clients, which I think he should be able to continue even with the distance bc they can have web conferences etc to discuss the website that he designed. I am just going to stop worrying about that and the whole marriage factor. I think that I will ask him if he still intends to follow the plans that he was going to discuss with my dad in reference to that issue. Maybe he is serious about that, maybe not. I guess I will find out. 

Other than that things are okay. Last night was a pretty laid back evening. I fell asleep at 9:30. Today we will go to mooresville so he can meet with some clients. I think I might be getting my nipples pierced. I have to take out my monroe piercing for the new job, so I will replace it with my nipples. lol!