Down the spiral..... | kiragirl79's Blog

So, here I go again, spiraling down into a deep depression. I should have known that Richard leaving for 4 months would trigger such a thing. I guess that I knew it deep down, but didn't want to believe it. It has been 2 weeks now since he has left and I am still sleeping most of the day, crying alot, feeling useless, hopeless, helpless, and worthless. I feel really bad for Kali because she has to see me go through this. She has remained cheerful and sweet in spite of it all. Every day it gets harder to make myself get out of the bed. I don't have the will to do anything, to shower, to change clothes, to eat, to get up out of bed. I finally got up at 1 today because Kali came in and told me that it was late and that I needed to get up. I have some friends here, but nobody that I can depend on and nobody that I would trust enough to tell my little secret. I don't know what to do. I hurt so bad that it is making me feel physically sick. I just want my baby to come back. I miss him so damn much!