An out of town visitor | kiragirl79's Blog

Well, this weekend, I had my first visitor from out of town. My brother flew in from Winston-Salem NC. It was really nice to see a friendly familiar face, since things have been so dreary out here in the frozen cornfields of Iowa. Friday we ended up just hanging out at the house because we got snow and the roads weren't good. Unfortunately, the state was looking for one of my calls at work so that they could listen to it, so I have been anxious about whether they reviewed the call and if I did something wrong. Since I had just gotten home from work, the anxiety was still pretty fresh and I had a hard time disconnecting. My boyfriend reminded me that there is nothing that I can do about it now anyway, so there is no point worrying, but I still have a sense of dread about going to work tomorrow. I am just bracing myself for the worst, even though I can't think of a single thing that I did wrong.

Valentines day was pretty nice. I was a little bit mean to my boyfriend as I did not receive any gifts at work on friday. It did bring me down a little bit when my coworkers, who did receive something, kept asking me if I had gotten anything yet. I was surprised on Saturday when he actually did get me something. Not that I think that he is a bad guy or anything, he is just not a romantic really. I think that I hurt his feelings because he said that I have been being very negative about him lately. I don't mean to be and I really do love him alot. I guess that I have just been negative in general. The veil of depression finally seems to be lifting gradually and I have felt better this past week then I have in awhile. I guess that I have resigned to the fact that there is no turning back now. I made a decision to move and accept this new position and now I am going to have to do whatever it takes to make it work. I know that I am capable, I just have to pull myself together and make it work.

Unfortunately Saturday night I couldn't find a babysitter, so me and my brother went to the gay club. At first things weren't working out so well for me and I wasn't having very much luck with the ladies, but by the end of the night I met Stephanie...this really cute little lesbian. We mainly just danced and flirted and we were both horribly drunk, so I don't know that she will even remember me if we meet again. I guess in my drunken state, I was a little bit less shy then usual. She moved in pretty fast and was pretty much feeling me up, so I took the opportunity to do the same. She told me that she will be there next friday so I should come out again. I talked to my boyfriend as we had already made plans to celebrate belated valentines day together next weekend. He mentioned something about us going out there on friday and he would kind of hang back. I don't know, I kind of wanted to celebrate belated valentines day with him, but he might find it pretty hot to watch me and some chick feeling each other up on the dance floor, that is if she would even remember me. Hmmmm....decisions, decisions. I guess we will see.